Muting our love light...

There is a guy who works at a coffee shop that I often go to, who I clearly annoy. I am pretty jovial and alert… and I suspect that it is my genuine excitement for life that is irritating to him. Because I recognize this, I am sensitive to it. I both consciously and subconsciously 'dim' my light when I am around him so I don't irritate him more…more..more. But today it was different...

While waiting in line, a generous guy in front of me handed me a 'free-drink' card. This was EVER so exciting~ because lately my drink of choice, that I rarely order because it is not cheap, has been Matcha Green Tea latte w hemp milk (have you tried this?? SO SO SO delicious!) So, I am feeling open, grateful, happy to receive this drink card and smiling so so BIG. The grumpy barista was expressing how annoyed he was by subtly rolling his eyes, looking at me with disdain, and wrinkling his forehead. But in this instance, I didn't not lower my light. I didn't dim it down to make him feel less agitated. Actually, I couldn't even if I wanted to because I was so grateful!! So, I continued to beam my appreciation for a surprise matcha green tea latte and the generosity of others. 

…And I have decided that I won't mute my light for this barista or anyone. I choose to be sensitive to those people who have a difficult time being around my joy, but I am not going to stop being me so that others can feel comfortable, or less antagonized. PLUS, I don't want to deprive this barista, by dimming my light, from the breakthroughs and liberation that come from taking responsibility for our own experiences and emotions wink emoticon‪#‎freedrinkcard‬ ‪#‎luckygirl‬ ‪#‎matchagreentealatte‬ ‪#‎grumpybarista‬ yo! And let's Bless this dude up, eh?!